Posts tagged character flaws

I am the problem!

censor yourself

Written by moi AKA Sister Selfish Prick!

I have always thought i had a wicked sense of humor. Cheeky, cynical  and sarcastic are acronyms often associated with my personality.  My ability to laugh at myself and others has served me well (maybe too well) over the years.  When i have encountered misinterpretations about my “dark sense of humor” i have always chalked it up to someone just not getting me! What i have come to understand is that is it is just not them not getting me, it’s me not understanding the gravity of my words. I pride myself on being a thoughtful person. A loyal friend who would go out of my way for anyone i care about. Because my family is so small and fragmented, perhaps i place more value on friendships-i see them more as an extended family. Somehow this awareness and appreciation i feel like i have for my friends has not translated into the words that come out of my mouth. My jokes are not always politically correct. I make fun of everyone-including my own culture. My humor is not meant to be taken seriously. I am fully aware that there is good and bad in all people of all background.  But two recent miscommunication really hit me hard. First, I managed to alienate an old friend who thought I that i believe  that she was marrying beneath herself because her fiancee is Nigerian. I don’t know exactly what i said  to hurt her, but I probably made some lame joke about credit card scams and Nigerians.  Secondly, I managed to alienate a total stranger online by cracking a joke about a certain south american country and drugs sigh… Just a note here, I am person who has studied latin american history extensively and traveled to central america so i am aware of the rich history and culture.  Initially, i didn’t give it a second thought when i first made these statements. In retrospect, I have come to realize how they could be offensive and hurtful. So … I have become what i detest most, a thoughtless person.  These are not the first or second times I have have alienated someone with my words, but i pray that these are the last. Who we are is not only what we feel in our hearts or what we do, but it also what we say. In both instances i did apologize. I feel pretty disgusted with myself.

Note to self: I practice more self awareness and true thoughtfulnessand adab as a believer should

P.S. If i haven’t offended you yet, I probably will. I appologize ahead of time!

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